Mini Personal Rant... (Since Tumblr is down)

I feel like I'll never be able to give you the attention you need or make you feel like you want to feel in this relationship, and I started feeling that way when you brought up your bitch ass ex bf from 5 years ago who tried to make you feel like you can have the damn world and I can't even buy a fucking gift because my money situation isn't right. 


I feel like not being a people pleaser is alienating the people in my life from me at a time where I'm finally putting my feelings and my concerns and whats important to me before those of other people. 


I feel like I can never do enough, good enough, for myself or for anyone else. 


I feel frustrated because I don't know why I have the baggage I do, and I don't know how to get rid of it. 


I feel frustrated because I can't answer the questions of shit going on in my own life and I feel so helpless and so lost that and that no one cares as long as the shit going on with me as far as they are concerned is good.


I'm sick of all this shit. 


I'm sick of being frustrated and not knowing what caused it all, I'm sick of being 21 years old, without a job, money, living under someone else's roof, being a sad existance for a young man whose only good to be someone else's ear when they are going through shit. 


I'm just done...