I'm perturbed. And I feel perfectly fine feeling that way. Let me show you why.
This is conversation I had with my gf yesterday. For those who don't know, yesterday was the first Sunday of the NFL season this year.
Me: Hello
Her: Hey babe
Me: Whatcha doin
Her: Nothing much cleaning and watching Aladdin
Me: Wow... you and every other non football watching female (Note: Previously she has expressed she watches football and likes the Giants and Saints, but its not one of her favorite sports)
Her: I'm boycotting the NFL season
Me: o_O why?
Her: A few reasons, one being I don't agree with ppl being neglectful of things and ppl in their lives for the sake of a game where its socially acceptable for men to grope one another"
Me: Okay Malcolm (referencing Malcolm X as she sounds like she's on a soapbox)
Her: *Shruglife*
Me: You're Doing To Much
Her: No I think your gender isn't doing enough and I'm not participating in it
Me: Okay I'm not touching this with you... As much as women want guys to be involved with the things they like, its wild you said that.
Her: Ask any women what she wants out of a man and I doubt she'd say anything of the sort lol. I'll just say this: If men put half the energy and paid women half the attention and thought they give football, all relationships would be perfect
Me: go back to watching Aladdin. This is the first time you've given me a headache from being annoyed."
{Insert a couple Pointless messages}
Her: Couldn't be annoyed if there wasn't some truth to the words.
Me: Ha! and that's where you're wrong
Her: Nah I doubt it
Me: I could care less if you doubt it or not. Did you forget guys like when women talk sports when they know what they are talking about.
Her: Yea... but no women wants a mans attention for the duration of a sports season... If that's the only way to us y'all can have it
Now at this point I decided I'm not going to talk to her for the rest of the day. I decided to enjoy my day and watch football like I have every Sunday a game has been on since I've been living.
Why?
Because I REFUSE and will be damned is ANYONE wants me to feel guilty for watching a football game and enjoying it. Often times I feel as is If there is something I like that she doesn't like I'm supposed to give up what I like for the sake of appeasing her. And often I feel that when its something she likes, me opposing it will only lead to more issues between us.
She's begging for attention with shit like that... and that shit was manipulative. The only reason you would say some shit like that is to try to evoke some feeling of guilt in me to make sure I'm giving you attention instead of what you know I want to do.
I'm still my own person, and you catching an attitude with me THIS MORNING when I was trying to get over it was not the answer.
So in short: I'm a young man. I like sports, love watching football. If you feel you have to compete with a football game for my attention, WHEN I TEXT YOU WHILE A FOOTBALL GAME WAS ON TO ASK YOU HOW YOU ARE DOING, then you obviously don't see that I still care enough.
/rant sometimes I wish I didn't give a damn.
The U.R.G.
